Time has the power – to change things as per its own will, in its own pace. The constantly turning time wheel makes you acknowledge one of the most prominent reality of life – that nothing is permanent. This awareness was ensued from the recent loss of my grandmother. This unfortunate incident triggered a train of thoughts in my mind, reminding me of the fact that I had lost multiple close family members in a very short period of time, the cognizance that while I will no longer have them standing behind my back, I was lucky enough to get their love and warmth, & the truth that it will only be wise to live every single moment and celebrate every single person in our lives to the fullest, for tomorrow cannot be relied on!
As I was trying to cope up with the maelstrom of thoughts inside me, a glimpse of a family picture from my wedding elicited an unexpected smile on my face. My mind seemed to have found an instrument to fill that void inside me – the beautiful memories from a time, fortuitous enough to witness the presence of all the prominent relations gracefully playing their parts. Happy and cheerful people; concerned and well-wishing parents; proud grandparents; emotional yet happy siblings; light banter of friends; music that is soothing and makes you dance to its tune; mouth-watering food and uncountable smiles and laughs. This is the image recreated every time I think of my wedding – those five days that seem to have encompassed more than a century of happiness within them.
With an envelope of pure and protective blessings from the elders & the love and warmth of friends and family, I was living in a phase where nothing appeared impossible. I seemed to have an energy so high that it could ignite a fire inside me and I could carry that fireball in my hand. I was as carefree as a fawn jumping across the green wood oblivious to any boundaries. I was as gleeful as the dolphin playing in the ocean and splashing water all over. I was as content as a monk meditating in his monastery. I was surfing on this unknown, unexplored tide of alacrity where I knew that whatever was happening, was just right! I think I wanted nothing more and nothing less.
It is said that you attract what you desire and how you feel. I could see it happen then. Everyone around me seemed to be reciprocating the welcoming zeal inside me. Fun, frolic, laughter and high spirits of a reunion was proliferating. Even though there was an urgency of the responsibility, but the sparkling joy in our eyes would just ease that in a matter of seconds.
The vigour which had taken hold of me, made me take up the challenge of managing the gamut of celebrations as well. I was the choreographer of my sangeet function, the interior decorator of all the venues of the wedding, the dress designer for all my costumes. In short, I was my wedding planner. Of course, I could give some credit to my younger sisters and my parents who might have played some role in this! Those endless shopping sprees which would make you feel like the powerful czar who could buy everything, were one of the most unforgettable part of the whole preparation. The feeling of wholesomeness, that all those people who matter were around, with full participation in your happiness, is what completed this beautiful & colourful jigsaw puzzle.
Reminiscence of my wedding is a gateway to multiple emotions and feelings, involving smiles and tears arousing at the same time, but they surely are one of the happiest that I have ever experienced. Till date whenever I attend a wedding or witness any wedding video or pictures, it takes me back to the winter of 2014 and I relive the entire experience again. This is the time in my history of events, the gates to which I would always keep open and return to as often as possible, to feel that bliss maybe just once again.